No matter how nice our clothes are, how on point our instagram feed is, whether or not we have the most recent iPhone (which are all things we seem to use to assess who a person is these days), we are all imperfect. We are broken, we are struggling with things whether they be big or small, we are longing for someone to understand. I will be the first to say that I am so ridiculously high maintenance and I have no idea how I have people in my life that actually want to stay there. I am imperfect.
Tonight, a conversation was had about fears. Again, I will be the first to say I am fearful of almost everything. Anxiety takes over 93% of my life.
But more importantly, we talked about how to bring our fears to God. We prayed. We opened up (only by choice, of course). And I was able to really sit in who God is.
God meets me where I am and is so so patient with me.
For those of you who aren't sure what you believe in or what you think of God (if you believe there is one), it probably sounds ridiculous. If you would've said that to my face a year ago, I probably would've done that laugh where you're laughing because the person you're talking to sounds crazy and you just don't really know how else to react.
For me, I learn more about who God is through friends and family. So the fact that I'm surrounded by people who love me and accept me and want to hear what I have to say and want to sit with me through all the muck in life, that's how I know who God is. I know He doesn't think I'm crazy for what I'm fearful of. He doesn't abandon me when times get rough. He cries when I cry and laughs when I laugh, because that's what my friends do. And my friends are God's vessels that show me how important I am and for that I will forever be grateful.
Thank You, God, for this beautiful life.
Sunday, January 24, 2016
Friday, January 8, 2016
I'M DIFFERENT, YEAH I'M DIFFERENT
I'm a freshman in college, weird to say and it still hasn't hit me, but thats where I'm at. I've gone through high school and had my share of highs, lows, phases, crushes, etc. I think being out of high school has made it more obvious to me when people are just trying to fit in.
It's totally fine to stay with the trends, to wear those short boot things, to have that hair cut with the longer hair on top for the guys, to like rings, to enjoy listening to Drake or whoever. That's normal. But I feel like lately I've seen so many people that are clearly speaking the way they are or behaving the way they do because that's what they feel they have to do to fit in.
I don't know if you've heard this lately, but IT'S OKAY TO BE DIFFERENT. It's okay to not have any interest in drinking and partying, it's okay to not want to have a significant other, it's okay to enjoy different music than everyone else.
Peer pressure is so much different than they make it out to be. It's not people in your face saying "do this," or "do that." It's when everyone else is doing it and you feel that you have to do it, too. I'm 18, I've never drank, never smoked, never been to a party, never had a boyfriend. I'm not exactly the definition of cool, but I have friends. I have friends that care about me for who I am and support me in my choices. It's okay not to want to be part of the hype. If your friends don't support that, RUN. FAST. Friends are supposed to love you through your highs and lows. They're supposed to hug you when you need it. You're supposed to be able to laugh over stupid youtube videos with them and tell them your life story. If that's not the case, RUN.
You're not put on this earth to be just like everyone else. You're an individual. You have free will and choices. You can dress how you want, listen to what you want, talk to who you want, but please, please make sure it's what YOU want. Not what society tells you that you should want.
It's totally fine to stay with the trends, to wear those short boot things, to have that hair cut with the longer hair on top for the guys, to like rings, to enjoy listening to Drake or whoever. That's normal. But I feel like lately I've seen so many people that are clearly speaking the way they are or behaving the way they do because that's what they feel they have to do to fit in.
I don't know if you've heard this lately, but IT'S OKAY TO BE DIFFERENT. It's okay to not have any interest in drinking and partying, it's okay to not want to have a significant other, it's okay to enjoy different music than everyone else.
Peer pressure is so much different than they make it out to be. It's not people in your face saying "do this," or "do that." It's when everyone else is doing it and you feel that you have to do it, too. I'm 18, I've never drank, never smoked, never been to a party, never had a boyfriend. I'm not exactly the definition of cool, but I have friends. I have friends that care about me for who I am and support me in my choices. It's okay not to want to be part of the hype. If your friends don't support that, RUN. FAST. Friends are supposed to love you through your highs and lows. They're supposed to hug you when you need it. You're supposed to be able to laugh over stupid youtube videos with them and tell them your life story. If that's not the case, RUN.
You're not put on this earth to be just like everyone else. You're an individual. You have free will and choices. You can dress how you want, listen to what you want, talk to who you want, but please, please make sure it's what YOU want. Not what society tells you that you should want.
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